When I was a youngster, I was very athletic and fit. I played competitive softball, and for fun played basketball and ran track as a sprinter. In winter it was ringette, skating, any activity I could do.
In University the sports stopped, but I stayed fairly active and basically the same size until an illness at age 31. I gained 50 pounds in 3 months due to medication and subsequent diet changes. Over the next several years I ballooned to a peak weight of 220.2, at a height of 5’8. It was an electronic scale, so that exact number is permanently emblazoned on my mind.
Finally in October 2008, just prior to my 38th birthday, after a painful relationship breakup (is there any other kind?) I looked in the mirror at myself. I started to call myself names – stupid, ugly, unloveable. And the light suddenly came on for me. I realized that I am not any of those things, that I was imperfect, but that I had lots of love in my life, and that I needed to show myself some of it. I also realized that I was a lot bigger than I thought I was.
The next day I went back to the gym and began to eat healthy, and really started to change my entire life. Over the next five months I lost 50 pounds through consistent healthy eating and exercise, and since then have lost 15 more, for a total of 65. It has been over three years since that day I looked in the mirror. I decided to blog here because while there are a million sources of information for weight loss, when I reached goal I had no idea what to do, and I flailed – I had spent years thinking I would never reach this weight, and had been so focused on the goal that I had no idea what to do when I was no longer in ‘loss’ mode. Given my sedentary and stressful job and the pressures of having ’a life’, sometimes it is a struggle to find motivation and time to stay with it, so I’m here to share my experiences (positive and negative) with others.
About me – I’m one of the lucky ones who actually enjoys being in a gym, where I strength train two to three times a week, and indoor cycle as often as I can. I don’t run unless chased with a weapon, and yoga makes me angry. I’m a believer that there is a fun activity for everyone, you just need to figure out what that is for you. I have developed a liking for ‘Mud Races’ like the Warrior Dash, and plan to try out some martial arts. My life dream is for more women to see that you can strength train and still be girly – I believe that strong is sexy. Non-fitness wise, I’m an avid reader and watcher of fiction, particularly sci-fi (especially anything Joss Whedon), have a love for LOLcats, and am adding to my almost full back of tattoos. I’m an office drone for a software company by day, and am studying project management by night. My life motto is ‘Try everything you want to, and some things you don’t. If you don’t try it, you’ll never find your new favorite thing.’